I want to die with every sound quantified in my ear drums...

I react in different ways.

But I always make significant room for self-doubt.

Always, always.

And then I kill a bug to feel more powerful.

     Once upon a time, God was the sun. He showered the mortal population of the solar system with golden radiation. They basked in the knowledge that He existed, that He, Himself, loved them so warmly. Many cried out to God saying, "more! more!" But God had no more to give than His own gift of light. So god sent a darkness to cover parts of the day. He called this cover night. For He knew now that the people would never recognize when enough is enough ,and so, better to leave them wanting when there is indeed more to give...

    On the day the rain stopped in the city, Alex stayed indoors and believed that as soon as he left his apartment, it would all begin again. The next day, it rained and Alex stayed in again believing that if he were to leave the house preapared for rain, it would stop.
     From his rooftop above God watched Alex start and stop to leave his apartment.
     "Here is an example," God thought to himself, " of someone who thinks like a real thinker!"
     Said God to himself, "Thought is simultaneously the root of hesitation to act and compulsive action!" With his finger in the air, God cast a scornful eye toward Alex's apartment. "It is a compulsive, thoughtless action, this man's hesitancy."

     Alex, meanwhile, looked upon God (God) and wondered aloud that the rain might stop for certain. It was all anybody could ask for: certainty. And in his infinite wisdom, God (God) saw fit to deny Alex's speculative declaration, maintaining that if the rain were indeed to stop certainly, Alex would doubt it.

So God (God) sent a woman.

its been a long time since i been on here.

 

 

wow.

 

 

nobody missed me though.

 

cant blame ya

 

emoh